Now that September has ended, should I wake up? Should I think its over? Should I accept its over? Now that September has ended, should I give up on you?
I had imagined our life together, a small family living in a small house but with lots of love and happiness.Now that September has ended should I wake up? Should I wake up from the beautiful things I had dreamt of? Every moment of the day is spent thinking about you. I have run the knife through my finger, used a conditioner instead of shampoo and what not thinking about you. Should I wake up now that September has ended? I spend nights battling, pushing away my thoughts to a place where they feel extinct. There is not a moment of my life which is not related to you. With you leaving, a part of me has gone. I have lost a major organ of my body, which has paralysed me and is making survival difficult than ever.
I never knew that life without me would have been an easier choice than staying with me and working on us. I just knew one thing, and that was that you loved me. But now that September has ended, should I wake up and believe that I was wrong?
I cannot hate you or can ever stop loving you. But I cannot live my life waiting for you. If you had loved me enough, you would have been there beside me for better or for worse. I believe that you loved me, but I cannot trust that you wont leave me. I don’t know if I can move on or even if I want to move on. A few weeks back, I could see everything clearly, now everything is bizarre. I wont stop myself and wait for you, I ll be walking forward. You have to take effort and walk to me. Just give me a sign and I shall be there.
You will always be in my prayers. I have always wanted your success and happiness. And even though September has ended, I shall not give up on your happiness. Every time you smile, I shall think God has listened to my prayers and is blessing me. So I’m waking up now that September has ended. I’m waking up to a new life. You can either be a part of it or not. The choice is yours.
With love, To love, By love.
As It was a 2 day trip, I was not ALLOWED to carry a lot of things. So as much as I wanted to carry my heels, I had to go with flats because ballet flats are comfortable and I had to do a lot of walking.
The mustard yellow is a colour which is very much in trend. We have seen that in the EMMY’S and so I decided to wear this top which has roman kinda sleeves and a sequined neckline. There is not a thing I dislike about it.
I wore it with my favourite black skinnies and ballet flats.
Gold accessories are best bet with yellow. And by now you all know ‘FALL’ is incomplete without the ‘oxblood’ colour, so I painted my nails with this gorgeous colour.
This red rose hair grip was love at first sight. I saw it and immediately purchased it. This was a perfect pop of red which my outfit demanded. Im wearing nude lips to keep things simple.